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Friday, December 11, 2009

Bittersweet Endings

You know the saying "all good things come to an end" ? I REALLY hate that saying right now.

I never thought I would be so excited and yet still so devastated at the same time---until last night. You see we found out last night that our college and singles minister and his family, our mentor and discipleship leader and her family, and our Generation band are all leaving in May to plant a church in Cullman, AL.

Before I continue let me just say that I AM excited for them. This is going to be an amazing experience and I know God is going to do amazing things through them because of their willingness to obey and step out on faith.

As we met with Andy last night I think I sat in shock and it didn't really hit me until about midway through our Christmas dress rehearsal and then the tears came a flooding. I just didn't get it. Why was this happening? What were we going to do?--I mean I was a serious mess and so was Natalie. But then I thought about what I read for discipleship last month and how in Hosea we are reminded that we don't always understand God's plan but we don't have to because He is in control and He has a higher purpose.

Isaiah 55:8
"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways," declares the LORD.

I realize that we do not follow man's teachings but Andy and Linda had helped me through so much and I have grown more under them than any other person.

After rehearsal last night me and Natalie were talking with our other teachers and they really spoke life into the situation. God has a reason behind this--we don't know something about God yet and He wants to reveal it to us in this situation. We (and our ministry) will carry on because God will not let us fall to pieces because of this.

As I drove home last night I started thinking about all the times I have been in church and leadership left and what I learned through it. The first time I experience this was when I was young and the pastor of the church I grew up in left to go to another church in MOBILE (3 hrs away). Our church was devastated (and I was sad because my "boyfriend" was leaving HAHA) but God enhanced our church and also blew Toby away-his ministry was on fire. The second time I was really affected by this was at the same church and our youth pastors left. This was REALLY hard. We found out in Sunday school right before service and I don't think any of us paid attention to anything we heard after "we're leaving". Even though Brian and Michele had changed our lives and how we grew as Christians, we made it through (about 5 youth pastors HAHA). We grew because of it and so did their ministry. (Those were 2 of the most difficult ones)

And this time is going to be NO DIFFERENT. God is going to do amazing things through our ministry and also through Andy's. They are going to reach people that have been forgotten. God is going to use them to help people break free from the crap that here in the south has become second nature. (like racism, religion, prejudice, being luke warm, etc)

Even though I am really sad I am super excited to see what God is going to do through this. And Hey it's not like Cullman is halfway across the world!

Isaiah 41:10
So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009


For a while now every time I saw the commercials for organizations that let you sponsor kids I just felt moved to do something---but I wouldn’t do anything. Well, a few Sundays ago I really felt it strong (probably because Pastor Kevin was preaching about orphans. Then Rick and Bubba had World Vision on THEN a blog I read all the time was talking about Compassion. SO…..after all of that I really got the fact that God wanted me to act on the feelings He kept putting in my spirit. So I did! Since I minored in Spanish I really felt moved toward Latin America and without hesitation I chose Costa Rica. I could not WAIT to get my packet in mail and when it came I about passed out especially when I saw how stinkin cute Nohemy was. ---I would probably adopt her if I could!!!!

But then Monday when I was setting up my account World Vision asked if I wanted to sponsor another child from the same project---I was curious so I started looking at the pictures. I wanted to sponsor ALL OF THEM—but Jose stuck out to me so I clicked on the button and decided to sponsor him too.

I am not saying this to brag on myself—I just want more people to sponsor kids because WE can do without things we may want to help these kids with what THEY NEED!!!! We have it so well in this country and these children don’t even have clean water.

I was reading the information that came with my packet and it said that girls as young as 8 in Costa Rica and all over the world are sold into human trafficking---this hit me at the core. And the little boys are often in gangs before too long.

I am so thankful that God has blessed me with a job that I can afford to do this and honestly it is not that hard to sponsor a child. It just means going without a few less coffees at Starbucks or not buying the jeans you think you can’t live without to help a child that doesn’t have clean water, can’t go to school and who’s family lives on less than $1 a day.

Matthew 18:5 Jesus said “And whoever welcomes a little child like this in my name welcomes me.”

Matthew 25:34-40 "Then the King will say to those on his right, 'Come, you who are blessed by my Father; take your inheritance, the kingdom prepared for you since the creation of the world. For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me.' "Then the righteous will answer him, 'Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you something to drink? When did we see you a stranger and invite you in, or needing clothes and clothe you? When did we see you sick or in prison and go to visit you?' "The King will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me.'

Friday, November 13, 2009

God Gave Me a wake up call

Generation last night was AMAZING!!! I will be changed forever after last night’s message. I went in not expecting to be moved like I was (I know that sounds crazy because you should always go expecting God to move).

A man and his family in our ministry spoke last night about how God had moved in their lives the past 5 months. He was in a motorcycle wreck in June and at first glance he should not have been where he is today. His wife spoke about how God ordered every step during that time --- from the nurses to the hospital to the surgeons to the rehab facility to the people who visited them in the hospital. This man had broken multiple vertebrate and should not have been able to walk again-----but he is walking TODAY!!!! God supernaturally healed him from the inside out. He talked about how while he was “out of it” he saw things that he never wanted to talk about or see again --- how he saw the spiritual battle for his very life. He talked about how he wondered where God was in all of this and how when he called and called out to God he found Him. One thing that stuck out to me was when he said God doesn’t move—WE DO!

He went on to talk about the spirit of fear that was attacking him and his family at this time and how he knew all the scriptures that spoke about how God does not want us to fear (like,2 Timothy 1:7 For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline. and Philippians 4:6 Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done.)but he just was under serious attack. His wife talked about phone calls she received during this from friends that said they had a serious burden to pray for them and to pray against the spirit of fear that was attacking their family---she was amazed. He then went on to talk about how there was NO DOUBT that God performed this miracle not the medical community. God showed out and turned the medical community upside down.

I sat and listened to this amazing story last night of how God rocked this family’s world and all of my issues right now seemed insignificant in comparision to the fact that life is SHORT. I have been under attack here lately and felt like God just didn’t care---but last night I woke up!!! Mark was closing the service last night when he said he had a burden on his heart that someone in the room was having issues with fear and feeling like God wasn’t there---that He didn’t hear you—that He didn’t care. Well that person was ME, I started shaking all over and crying and turning into a mess---that’s when Mark shared what the Lord laid on his heart to tell “that person” aka ME----He said that God wanted me to go after Him with my WHOLE heart and to let Him take care of everything else because He cared enough to go through life with me. Then the band started playing Oh How He Loves Us-----and I broke!!!!

All of the crap that had been going on in my life with relationships, jobs, family, fears of every kind, past regrets, etc…..didn’t matter anymore because I knew my Daddy heard me crying and He wanted me to climb up in His arms and just let Him hold me----He cared---He loved me---He chose me----He wanted ME!!!

I say all of that to tell you----Life is life, it's short and it stinks at times- things will happen, people will come and go, storms will come, but none of that matters. Being in LOVE with your Savior is the ONLY thing that matters!!!!

I’ve included 2 videos of some songs that are now my life songs!!

Monday, November 9, 2009

Give Honor Where It's Due

Veterans' Day is this week and that means it is time to honor those men and women who lay their lives on the line for our freedom. Veterans' Day has had a new meaning to me for the last few years. I have always respected our military men and women but a few years ago it hit a little closer to home. My cousin Phillip had enlisted in the Army when he was younger and he hit the ground running and took the job as a soldier seriously. He went to Ranger school and Paratrooper school and rose in the rankings in the Army. I was so very proud of him. After 9-11 I started getting this feeling that something was going to happen and I may never see Phillip again. He had been stationed in Germany and we had lost touch but he still meant a lot to me.

I remember being at my grandmother's house one night and she told me she had something to tell me----Phillip was going to war. It was like someone had hit me right in the stomach. I sat there for what felt like forever not knowing what to say. She told me that my aunt was going to have a get together before he left to go back to Fort Benning and I could not wait to see him and tell him how much I loved him. I did not want to let him go that day. I was scared to death something was going to happen to him.

Every day as the updates on the Iraq war came I was sick---- I felt worse and worse as the statistics came in. I was a nervous wreck not knowing how Phillip was doing or if he was still alive. Then came the article in the paper with Phillip's picture in it---I had a HUGE sigh of relief that day--He was ok! Then the pain came again and lasted for a while until he came HOME!!!!

Oh the day he FINALLY came home......My aunt threw a coming home party (she always has parties) And I don't think I left Phillip's side for 1 minute that day!! I was SOOOOOOO glad he was home in 1 piece.

But the battle doesn't end when the troops come home. They have to deal with what they saw and what they did and sometimes it is VERY hard for them to reacclamate to the day to day.

I don't think that at times we give our troops the respect that they deserve. They fight for US!!!! I know people my age only aquaint war to what is going on now but there are more troops out there that have fought in wars that we could not even wrap our heads around how bad they were.

Thank our troops and let them know how much you appreciate what they do!!!!!

Seasons come and Seasons GO!!!!

So I just need to get something off my chest……..

Here lately I have been painfully aware of the fact that I am single. It’s going on 4 years that I have been single (technically more if you count the fact that my last “relationship” was only one of convenience HAHA). But within the last few months I have just felt hopeless in this situation. Not saying that I would go back to my last relationship and try to make it work because I wouldn’t (I was miserable) but I do miss having someone to share my life with. I am so glad that I have friends that are there for me and know exactly what to say --- I thank God that He has put them in my life. I even talked to my cousin and he informed me of what kind of person that I was when I was in my last relationship and if I went into another relationship like that I would end up going down a road I hated-----HE WAS SO RIGHT!!!!! I look back and realize God definitely knew what He was doing getting me out of that relationship because I was quickly turning into a person I despised while I was in it. To sum the relationship up in 1 word—COMPROMISE! I know that each time I try to take things into my hands I just make a big mess of things but then it is SO hard for me to see this time in my life as roses and gumdrops-----it sucks a lot at times. I try to tell myself that this is worth it and that God has someone so much better than anyone I have ever been in a relationship with but at times I get in this place where I wonder if the man is ever going to show up?!?!?

Anyway, I am thankful for my friends during this time especially because they really give me tough love and tell me how stupid I am being HAHA. I am glad that most of them get what I am going through and how sometimes you just want to scream when you get the “friend card” thrown in your face ALL THE TIME!!!!!! But whatever!

I was at Link last night and a friend of mine’s husband was giving his testimony and something he said really stuck out to me (well a lot did) but he was talking about how he felt after a relationship had ended and how He experienced God come and meet him and tell him that He was preparing his bride. Then he talked about how God wanted him to chase Him and let Him do the rest----At this point my friend Natalie almost knocked me off my chair haha----But then he talked about when him and his wife met and how everything was worth the wait. I was like Ok God I get it!!!! But then I told my mom I wanted to move because I was tired of Alabama boys screwing me over HAHAHA

So then I was talking to one of my really good guy friends last night and we weren’t even talking about relationships but then HE ASKED ME about some stuff and we just started talking about it. We were talking about how we know that we are not meant to be single and how we just wish that this “season” would hurry up and go away when a verse that another friend of mine gave me kept replaying in my head over and over. Hosea 2:14 "Therefore I am now going to allure her; I will lead her into the desert and speak tenderly to her.” I know that God has me in this place for a reason and I am just going to let Him show me why ----- even though I really want out of this season quickly! HAHA

Friday, October 23, 2009

Blessed To Have You In My Life!!!!!!

So, I have been thinking a lot lately about the people in my life and I have really been blessed to have such GREAT friends. In the past 3 years I have became friends with some amazing people and they have changed my life forever.
When I was younger I thought I had friends but it turns out we really weren't true friends to each other and have now grown apart.
But fast forward to today and I have so many people in my life that are there for me and encourage me on a daily basis and that means SO MUCH. I know I could call any of them and they would be there.
I just want to thank each and every one of you for being there for me and I promise to be there for you too. I thank God for blessing me with putting you in my life.

Overdue Update

Well now that I have told you about my new HEALTHY addiction, I can update you on more of what has been going on in my life.

Well not much has happened really in the avenue of anything MAJOR. But I did get to do something very exciting recently!!!!!

My really good friend Natalie called me and told me she had an extra ticket to the Alabama vs North Texas game and wanted me to go......I was SO excited because I hadn't been to a game since my 9th grade year in school and that was just an A-day game. So I went with her and her parents and I had a BLAST. Well I told her that if she ever had any other tickets to let me know.....WELL...She did to the game I WANTED to go to SO BAD. She called me this week and asked if I wanted to go to the Alabama vs. Tennessee game and----WELL THAT'S A NO BRAINER----OF COURSE. So I am so excited that I get to go.....ROLLLLLLLLLLLLL TIDE ROLL

Also, a bunch of us went to the Kari Jobe concert recently and it was AMAZING!!!!!! The worship was so intimate and Kari can sing like an angel!!!

Lastly, I am starting a Bunko Group tonight and I am SO stinkin excited!!!!!!

New Addictions

So as you all know I have been working out more lately so I can get back to being fit (and skinnier) HAHA. Well...I have a new addiction in the weight loss arena and it is.............Get Ready for it.........................

I am IN LOVE with this work out...It is so much fun and you can burn like 700 calories in an hour. LOVE LOVE LOVE

Funny story how I started doing Zumba. Me and my friend Ashleigh decided to go to a class offered close to us and I was TOTALLY embarrassed at the class because it is a lot of booty shakin. Well me and Ashleigh were cracking up about it but LOVED it (at least I did) So I went home and ordered the DVD's and I have done them EVERY DAY since I got them.

I will be posting more weight loss progress pics soon--I promise!

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

I'm in mourning!!!

So I got home last night and got on the computer only to find out one of my FAVORITE actors-Patrick Swayze- died. I couldn't believe it. He fought so hard and so long in his battle with cancer. My mom laughs at me because I will watch Dirty Dancing no matter what EVERY time it comes on tv even though I own the movie (and soundtrack) haha. I LOVE that movie. I told my mom last night that since people took off work when MJ died- because they were SO distraught that I was going to take off work today because I just couldn't function.---But for real, Patrick Swayze was a terrific actor. I was watching a E True Hollywood Story on him not too long ago, and I was pleased to see that he had remained faithful to his wife (as most people in Hollywood don't) and that even though he fell into the trap that so many actors do he learned from his mistakes and changed his life. I hope that he had gotten his life in line with God and that he is not suffering anymore.

Friday, September 11, 2009

8 years ago----Don't forget

8 years ago today, tragedy struck America and life as we knew it changed forever. I will never forget what I was doing that day....My best friend Candace and I were going to raise the flag, as we did every morning as part of our student council duties, when our teacher came running outside to tell us what happened--so we then lowered the flag to half mast and then sat glued to the tv all day at school. Everything was different that day and everyone was affected. I remember the way I felt that day vividly, I have never been so angry, sad, hurt, etc all at the same time. I remember how it seemed all of America united together for one cause. A lot of people turned to (or back to God) because we realized He was the only one who was going to get us through.

I remember when President Bush said we were going to war to defend our country against more attacks and how MOST people got behind the cause because we realized that is what needed to be done to put the attackers in their place. I remember the songs that were written during this time--everything.

I also remember when I found out my cousin was going to war---I was very proud of him and very scared for him at the same time. I lived by my phone and for the paper during this time just so I would know he was ok. Every time the news would report another death of an American soldier I would FREAK OUT until I knew it wasn't Phillip but then I would feel bad for the family of that soldier. It was a very emotional time. I remember when Phillip came back and how I could tell he was forever changed. When he would talk about things (which was very little) I would realize just how much these men and women were sacrificing so that we would be safe here in the states. I remember when he came home and I didn't want to let him go, the events surrounding 9/11 brought everyone closer in a sense.

But here we are 8 years later....many have forgotten that day and how they felt. Many have forgotten how God alone brought us through it. MANY have forgotten what the war was about and those who fought. From Micheal Moore and the Dixie Chicks to people we see on a daily basis---they have all lost sight of that day and may GOD FORGIVE US. ----Hopefully it won't take something tragic to get us all to wake up and turn to GOD again!!!!!!!

If you want to know a little of what our military went through I reccommend the book "Thunder Run"

Please keep our military in your thoughts and prayers as well as the victim's families. Also pray for our country and the leaders that they won't forget and will turn back to GOD!!!!!

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Tough Days and Breakthrough

For those of you who know me know that I have been looking for a new job for a long time. I am still looking and praying that something comes up soon. I don't know why but it is so hard for me to trust God right now. I know that He is there and He just wants me to trust Him but I just want out of this place ASAP. It is not that I don't like my coworkers or managers--I just don't like the travel involved and the fact that my job has NOTHING to do with what I went to school for. I am thankful that I have a job with benefits, I just want something that is going to not make me miserable. I hate feeling this way everyday.

I also found out that I have some health problems that are being increased due to all the stress that I am under with this job. UGH it never ends.

On a brighter note, I just want to thank you for praying for my cousin Phillip. Amazing things have been happening in that situation. My Aunt (Phillip's mom) and I have talked more during this than we ever have. She is really learning how to pull away and lean on God to deliver Phillip and if you knew her that is a HUGE step for her. Also, His brother went through some crap with his ex-wife and the family actually pulled together to pray and he was amazed at how God worked the situation out. Phillip is making progress to. He is going to a lot of classes at the VA and making steps to recover from all this junk. I also found out that a friend of mine is going to go talk to him and I am so excited for this--I think it will really help Phillip. Just please keep praying because I really feel that he is on the verge of a huge breakthrough.

Speaking of BREAKTHROUGH....This past weekend I went to the Beach Retreat with the Generation and it was AMAZING. God really showed up and showed out. David Jett spoke and he spoke on Breakthrough. I can't put into words what happened but I will say that a lot of people let God melt their chains away. I am so grateful for the word that was spoken.

This is why I am so confused about this whole job thing. I know that God has brought me out of so much and He has allowed me to see Him do some incredible things but just because I am having to wait for what seems like forever I am not clinging to Him like I need to. Ugh I am so hard headed.

Anyway that is enough of my gripe session---Just please pray for me!

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

GREAT News!!!!!!

So it's been a while since I wrote on here and I thought I would update you on some AMAZING news. No- I don't have a new job but this is BETTER!!!!!

Last Thursday (7-16) at our Generation service, everything in my life clicked and a spiritual light bulb came on. David Jett came and preached and he talked about how we should have complete surrender to God and forget about religion. Well I have known something has been wrong in my life and that I was miserable but I thought I was ok and that I was where I needed to be spiritually. WRONG!!!! I was as lost as lost could be.

I have grown up in church and thought I was ok just because of that. I said the prayer before but it was just because everyone else did it. I had head knowledge of God but He was not in my heart. I had raised going through the motions to an art form.

Well, Last Thursday that changed....I GOT SAVED!!!!! Praise God for His patience with me and His grace. I feel like this huge weight is gone! I do want to apologize to everyone for being a hypocrite for so long though!

The story doesn't end there. I have waited 7 years to tell my mom about my past and I told her everything last Friday. I was scared I couldn't do it in person ---that I would chicken out. So I wrote her an email laying it all out there. I told her I had been lying to her about what all happened after I was raped, about my relationships and how far they went, and how deep I got in my addiction. I told her that I hadn't wanted to tell her because I didn't want her to look at me any different. Well my mom emailed me back and told me NOTHING would cause her not to love me and that she had known that all this was going on but she was waiting on me to tell her! CRAZY! I love it! I have been flipping out over this and my mom knew and loved me anyway. That's like God, He knows we are screw-ups and He loves us ANYWAY!!! So awesome!!!

I am so excited and can't wait to see what the future holds.

July 16th 2009 is the day that changed my life FOREVER!

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Be A Dreamer

So, I have been reading this amazing book lately

This book is absolutely what I needed. And everything I have been reading in it has been confirmed in my Bible Fellowship class and in my Discipleship reading. It is about following the dreams that God has given us. The main thing is that our dreams don't come to reality overnight-they fit into a process. During this process God shapes us and tests us to see if we are ready to see our dream become a reality. You have to WAIT on your dream (THIS IS HARD). I'm telling you so many things in this book have hit me like a ton of bricks and I am SUPER excited to see how God is going to bring to reality the dream He gave me so long ago.

One thing I did realize while I was reading this book is that my childhood dream is my destiny that God has for me. The author says you will know it is your destiny when you would do it for free and not be upset about it. So, I am going to share my dream with you.....

My God-given dream is to start a catering/event planning business. I LOVE cooking and planning parties and wish I had more time to do this. One thing I know I want to do when God lets me do this is to have some kind of Scripture of Christian quote to go along with the theme of the event and to tie it into the party favors. I did this at my graduation party and I loved it. So, besides being a wife and a mother (DESPERATELY WANT THIS TOO) that is my dream.

So...What is your dream?????

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Overdue Update

So since the last time I posted A LOT of stuff has happened.....

I have applied at several more places to get a job that I truly LOVE and I have had 2 interviews with Coke so maybe I will hear something soon on that one. I really feel like I would enjoy this job.

I had to go to Puerto Rico for work for about 3 weeks and I was not happy. While I was there everything hit me at once. I was really upset about missing the Generation and the second discipleship in a row and not getting to go to church or see my friends, etc etc. That is the main reason why I don't like the job that I have now---because I can't be involved as much as I want to be at my church. Like I want to be able to do more with the Generation, and join the choir again and other stuff but I never know when and for how long I will be in town. That is truly frustrating to me.

Also, since I have been gone for so long I haven't been able to work out with Tyler and now I feel like a fat cow HAHA.

But on the bright side I got to see that there were some pretty places in Puerto Rico. I will post pictures at some point!

And when I got back I had a blast with some of the greatest people ever at a truly awesome 80s party.....

I will put more pictures up of this party too but my computer is freaking out right now..

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Miscellaneous Updates

So it's time for a few updates......

I finished reading this AWESOME book by Francine Rivers "Redeeming Love" and it was absolutely the best book I have read. It gave me a new outlook on things especially the fact that the man God has for me will love me despite ALL THE CRAP I did in my past. I want a man like Michael Hosea.....

So, about the job situation.........I just got back from a training trip to Orlando and that was fun but the most interesting part of the training was the class on fraud. I learned a lot at the conference, especially that IT is NOT for me! I am still waiting on the door God wants to open in this department and I know it will be worth the wait. Some bad news is I didn't get the job I wanted with the Credit Union League (tear) but some good news is I got my test results back from the state test I took and I did really well and I also have to take another test for the government soon for another job----SO PLEASE PRAY!!! Another thing for you guys to pray about....I have to go to Puerto Rico in a few weeks for about 3 weeks for work!!! I am a little nervous about this but maybe it will be like a vacation.

Ok now time for some venting updates------WHY IS EVERY SINGLE GIRL I KNOW GETTING ENGAGED?!?!?! This past week I have heard of several girls getting engaged-----and they are all younger than me by the way!?!?!?!?! This is starting to get very frustrating but OH WELL!

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

What are you afraid of?

OK, so I have been thinking a lot lately---I know that's scary me thinking! HAHA But I am absolutely terrified of something (me and God are working on this though)

Aside form the normal things people are scared of (snakes, spiders, storms, etc) I am terrified that I am NEVER going to get married and start a family. I don't know why I think about this so much but I do. I know that I have plenty of time to do this but for some reason every time I get an invitation to someone else's wedding, I think "will this EVER happen to me?" It is very frustrating when people who are considerably younger than you are getting engaged and having babies and you haven't had a real boyfriend in several years. Don't get me wrong I am very happy for my friends that are getting married but I just want it to happen to me! And I know I am probably not alone in this next thought but sometimes I hope that Jesus doesn't decide to come back before I get married and have babies.....I know it would be even more amazing to be in Heaven with Jesus but I REALLY want to expereince being married and having babies!

Anyway, so I was wondering what other people are afraid of?................

Monday, April 20, 2009


So I need to update this blog (and add some pictures) so it won't be so boring. This past week and weekend has been a blast! I applied for a job last week and withing about 30 minutes of applying I got an email asking me to interview on the following Thursday (YAY). So I interviewed and it went very well - I think! I am just praying that if that is the job God has for me I will get an offer! Also, I took a test on Saturday for a job with the state, so we will see how that goes!

Oh and after I took the test Saturday I stopped by Snoozy's to see some old coworkers and got a little confidence boost in the meantime. A girl and a guy that I used to work with told me that they could tell I had lost a lot of weight! ;-D I was SUPER excited about that.

Me and my mom kept my little cousin this weekend and we had SO much fun, we ordered pizza and ate ice cream (don't tell Tyler-haha) We watched Bedtime Stories and that movie was too cute. We were also going to watch Marley and Me but I am glad we didn't because that movie was sad! He is too funny to listen to while he is watching a funny movie- he gets so tickled- it is too cute.

While we were watching the movie I worked on an awesome dessert and pot for my friend Jill's going away party and that was too fun. I decided to paint a clay pot in her favorite colors to put the dessert I was making for her party in, and this was my first attempt at painting zebra print and I think I did pretty darn good at it. Also, the dessert I was making was cupcake lollipops (very time consuming but oh so good). I will send a link and pictures later.

Oh another exicting thing that happened was I got to see pictures of a friend of mine's newborn baby girl! She was adorable and I am so happy for him and his wife. He has really came a long way from being on drugs to joining the airforce, getting his life back on track, getting married, and becoming a dad. I can tell he is so happy now and I am so proud of him.

All in all I had a great weekend! Even though our dish went out while I was trying to watch MY FAKE FIANCE last night :-( HAHA

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Stressed out just does not explain it!!!!!!!!!!

Ok.....I am now begging God to give me another job! I am grateful that I have a job in this crazy time right now but the fact is that I have settled for less than the best God had for me.

I took this job because it was the first thing that came around after graduation and I took it as a sign that this is what I was supposed to do. I prayed for a job but I didn't pray and make sure that this was the job God wanted me to have.-----I MESSED UP!

I settled and now I am miserable because I am living in less than the best. I know not all jobs are perfect and I can't be a CEO right out of college (and I don't expect to be) but because I settled I am less than loving this job.

I'm praying that God opens a door quickly because I don't like all the out of state travel that this job involves because it keeps me away from church, discipleship, family, friends, training with Tyler, and much more. I feel like I am just getting by with this job.

God has certainly gotten my attention with this though because I have settled for so many things before and thought that I was happy only to find out that I never really was. Now I am facing the harsh reality of what settling for less than God's best really feels like.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

My Poor Trainer

I feel so sorry for Tyler today! He called to check in with me today and I had to tell him what I did (I wasn't supposed to do this)....I told him that I weighed last night and I was really upset because I had gained a few pounds back. He was like "TIFFFANNNYYYYYYY!!! You are not supposed to do that!" Well, I wish I would have listened to him because I have been a little upset about it. SCALES ARE THE DEVIL at times. He said that "I cannot focus on a number on the scale right now because I am losing fat but replacing it with muscle and I should just go by the way my clothes are fitting, plus I can look great without having to weigh 100 lbs!!!!" He is SO right and from now on I am staying off the scales (at least for a while)

Anyway, poor Tyler having to listen to me be upset today about something so goofy!!

Friday, March 27, 2009


So I left to go to lunch a little while ago (something I hardly EVER do) and I was listening to Natalie Grant's Cd Relentless when I heard a song on the cd that I never really paid attention to before but today it had MEANING.

Make a Way

She was only seventeen
Wild at heart and following her dreams
Even she was pretty, got a ticket to the city
Where she'd find her place on the cover of a magazine
It was only but it would lead the way
To the door of a man where she'd throw it all away
He said they'd take it slow but little did she know
She'd be all used up by the end of the day

But she was strong, she would survive
Ambition would be her drive

I'll make the way
I'll do whatever it takes even though it won't be easy
I have a plan and though I may not understand
Someday I'll make a way
Here me say someday I'll make a way

Where did she go wrong
How did she get here
Living hard and looking older than her years
Miss Little Bigtown trying to hold a job down
Just doing what she could to choke her fears

But she was strong, she would survive
The spark of hope that kept her dream was not alive

I'll make a way
I'll do whatever it takes even though it won't be easy
I have a plan and though I may not understand
Someday I'll make a way

Walking down the road
In the city where she'd come with so much hope
See her vision had long died
Along with all her pride
When she found herself at the end of her road
She heard angels through the doors
Of a church she'd passed a million times before
Inside the choirs song was ringing
Since she'd found herself believing
Out there maybe there was something more

And so she bowed her head to pray
She cried Jesus please make a way
And she heard Him say

I'll make a way
I'll do whatever it takes even though it won't be easy
I have a plan and though you may not understand
Today I'll make a way
Hear Him say today He'll make a way


Today He'll make a way
For you He's gonna make a way
For you He'll make a way

The song suddenly spoke to me in a different way. You see I have been really upset about my job lately and I DESPERATELY want something else. I know that this is not the job that GOD wants me to be in for the rest of my life so I am just waiting on another door to open. Today before lunch was boss was talking about the next projects and he said that I might go to Puerto Rico-------------I know it may sound like fun but trust me it is NOT. I was scheduled to be in Birmingham until May so this really upset me. This is one of the reasons I HATE this job. I like stability and I don't like the fact that I never know where I am going to be working more than 2 weeks out! So anyway, when I left to go to lunch I was praying and crying out to God for Him to PLEASE make a way and soon because He knew how I felt and He knew that I wanted to be able to spend more time with my family and church and church family and that I couldn't do this with my job now. I was pleading with God. By the way my cd was not turned up when I was praying so I did not know what song was playing-----I prayed all the way to get food and the way back. While I was sitting in the parking lot eating I heard Make a Way playing and it was like God was confirming everything I knew He was going to do as my Jehovah Jirah (the Provider) and telling me YES TIFFANY I WILL MAKE A WAY!!!!!

I am so glad that God is who He is and He knows our concerns and knows what our desires are. And I am SO glad that He speaks to us (even through songs). I am trusting that God is making a way even as I am typing this right now!!!!

Thursday, March 26, 2009


I have been reading the best book for the past few weeks and I just finished it today! It was "Captivating" by John and Stasi Eldridge. This book has opened my eyes to so many things. It talks about who we are in Christ as women. It talks about how we should understand that God gave us beauty so that we could use it for Him. I am not talking about just the physical beauty here..God gave each one of us beautiful qualities and we need to walk in them. The authors of this book talk about how when we are little girls we have a desire to be beautiful and lovely and noticed but because of lives circumstances we push it aside and try to ignore it. Well, God gave us that desire for a purpose and it is time we release that inner little girl and walk in the desires that God has given us.
The book also talks about how God allows us to go through rough times and even time of spiritual warfare in order for us to grow and lean on him more and more but also so that we will learn how to take our place as a warrior princess and stand in our authority through the blood of Christ and fight for ourselves. That part of the book was a HUGE wake up call to me because I have walked under attack and have done NOTHING!!! Well not's time to fight!!!! I would highly recommend this book to any girl I know....It is amazing!!!! But be prepared for God to shine a light it places you don't want to go! Your life is a fairy tale set in a battle ground. God is ready to dance with you all you have to do is let Him lead!

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Friends are the BEST!!!!!

So I have been thinking lately that I am SO blessed to have the friends that I do! I absolutely love each and every one of my friends so much!

A couple of years ago I felt God leading me to a new church and little did I know I was going to gain a lot more than a new church family. I gained the best group of friends ever. I have never experienced what TRUE friendship was until I met this group of friends. I know that I could call them about anything and they would be there.

All of you know who you are and I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for being the best group of friends that a girl could ask for.


Tuesday, March 24, 2009


So, I am going on my second month of working out with a trainer and I have to say...I am loving every minute of it. I have lost about 10 lbs as of now (with a lot more to go) and I am starting to feel a lot better about myself. My trainer is too funny and time goes by so fast when we are working out! Anyway...I was working out at home tonight and I decided to do some stuff with my bands when something crazy happened. I had the band tied to something and it was over my closet door (that was shut by the way) and I started the workout. Well, right about halfway through doing some stuff the door came open and the band along with what I had tied it to came flying out and smacked me right across my really hurt! The sad thing though is that Tyler told me to be careful because the same thing happened to him but the band hit across the chest. Oh well guess that is it for the bands unless I am actually standing on them!

Note to self Be careful when using resistance bands to work might get smacked with them.


Hey Guys!!! I don't know why I decided to start a blog but I did..........

I guess my first thing would be to update everyone about my job situation. For a long time I have always wanted to have a government job so here lately I have applied for a few. So, until I have some more news on this just keep me in your prayers.