Charm can mislead and beauty soon fades. The woman to be admired and praised is the woman who lives in the Fear-of-God. Give her everything she deserves! Proverbs 31:30

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Tuesday, April 21, 2009

What are you afraid of?

OK, so I have been thinking a lot lately---I know that's scary me thinking! HAHA But I am absolutely terrified of something (me and God are working on this though)

Aside form the normal things people are scared of (snakes, spiders, storms, etc) I am terrified that I am NEVER going to get married and start a family. I don't know why I think about this so much but I do. I know that I have plenty of time to do this but for some reason every time I get an invitation to someone else's wedding, I think "will this EVER happen to me?" It is very frustrating when people who are considerably younger than you are getting engaged and having babies and you haven't had a real boyfriend in several years. Don't get me wrong I am very happy for my friends that are getting married but I just want it to happen to me! And I know I am probably not alone in this next thought but sometimes I hope that Jesus doesn't decide to come back before I get married and have babies.....I know it would be even more amazing to be in Heaven with Jesus but I REALLY want to expereince being married and having babies!

Anyway, so I was wondering what other people are afraid of?................

Monday, April 20, 2009


So I need to update this blog (and add some pictures) so it won't be so boring. This past week and weekend has been a blast! I applied for a job last week and withing about 30 minutes of applying I got an email asking me to interview on the following Thursday (YAY). So I interviewed and it went very well - I think! I am just praying that if that is the job God has for me I will get an offer! Also, I took a test on Saturday for a job with the state, so we will see how that goes!

Oh and after I took the test Saturday I stopped by Snoozy's to see some old coworkers and got a little confidence boost in the meantime. A girl and a guy that I used to work with told me that they could tell I had lost a lot of weight! ;-D I was SUPER excited about that.

Me and my mom kept my little cousin this weekend and we had SO much fun, we ordered pizza and ate ice cream (don't tell Tyler-haha) We watched Bedtime Stories and that movie was too cute. We were also going to watch Marley and Me but I am glad we didn't because that movie was sad! He is too funny to listen to while he is watching a funny movie- he gets so tickled- it is too cute.

While we were watching the movie I worked on an awesome dessert and pot for my friend Jill's going away party and that was too fun. I decided to paint a clay pot in her favorite colors to put the dessert I was making for her party in, and this was my first attempt at painting zebra print and I think I did pretty darn good at it. Also, the dessert I was making was cupcake lollipops (very time consuming but oh so good). I will send a link and pictures later.

Oh another exicting thing that happened was I got to see pictures of a friend of mine's newborn baby girl! She was adorable and I am so happy for him and his wife. He has really came a long way from being on drugs to joining the airforce, getting his life back on track, getting married, and becoming a dad. I can tell he is so happy now and I am so proud of him.

All in all I had a great weekend! Even though our dish went out while I was trying to watch MY FAKE FIANCE last night :-( HAHA

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Stressed out just does not explain it!!!!!!!!!!

Ok.....I am now begging God to give me another job! I am grateful that I have a job in this crazy time right now but the fact is that I have settled for less than the best God had for me.

I took this job because it was the first thing that came around after graduation and I took it as a sign that this is what I was supposed to do. I prayed for a job but I didn't pray and make sure that this was the job God wanted me to have.-----I MESSED UP!

I settled and now I am miserable because I am living in less than the best. I know not all jobs are perfect and I can't be a CEO right out of college (and I don't expect to be) but because I settled I am less than loving this job.

I'm praying that God opens a door quickly because I don't like all the out of state travel that this job involves because it keeps me away from church, discipleship, family, friends, training with Tyler, and much more. I feel like I am just getting by with this job.

God has certainly gotten my attention with this though because I have settled for so many things before and thought that I was happy only to find out that I never really was. Now I am facing the harsh reality of what settling for less than God's best really feels like.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

My Poor Trainer

I feel so sorry for Tyler today! He called to check in with me today and I had to tell him what I did (I wasn't supposed to do this)....I told him that I weighed last night and I was really upset because I had gained a few pounds back. He was like "TIFFFANNNYYYYYYY!!! You are not supposed to do that!" Well, I wish I would have listened to him because I have been a little upset about it. SCALES ARE THE DEVIL at times. He said that "I cannot focus on a number on the scale right now because I am losing fat but replacing it with muscle and I should just go by the way my clothes are fitting, plus I can look great without having to weigh 100 lbs!!!!" He is SO right and from now on I am staying off the scales (at least for a while)

Anyway, poor Tyler having to listen to me be upset today about something so goofy!!