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Tuesday, November 17, 2009


For a while now every time I saw the commercials for organizations that let you sponsor kids I just felt moved to do something---but I wouldn’t do anything. Well, a few Sundays ago I really felt it strong (probably because Pastor Kevin was preaching about orphans. Then Rick and Bubba had World Vision on THEN a blog I read all the time was talking about Compassion. SO…..after all of that I really got the fact that God wanted me to act on the feelings He kept putting in my spirit. So I did! Since I minored in Spanish I really felt moved toward Latin America and without hesitation I chose Costa Rica. I could not WAIT to get my packet in mail and when it came I about passed out especially when I saw how stinkin cute Nohemy was. ---I would probably adopt her if I could!!!!

But then Monday when I was setting up my account World Vision asked if I wanted to sponsor another child from the same project---I was curious so I started looking at the pictures. I wanted to sponsor ALL OF THEM—but Jose stuck out to me so I clicked on the button and decided to sponsor him too.

I am not saying this to brag on myself—I just want more people to sponsor kids because WE can do without things we may want to help these kids with what THEY NEED!!!! We have it so well in this country and these children don’t even have clean water.

I was reading the information that came with my packet and it said that girls as young as 8 in Costa Rica and all over the world are sold into human trafficking---this hit me at the core. And the little boys are often in gangs before too long.

I am so thankful that God has blessed me with a job that I can afford to do this and honestly it is not that hard to sponsor a child. It just means going without a few less coffees at Starbucks or not buying the jeans you think you can’t live without to help a child that doesn’t have clean water, can’t go to school and who’s family lives on less than $1 a day.

Matthew 18:5 Jesus said “And whoever welcomes a little child like this in my name welcomes me.”

Matthew 25:34-40 "Then the King will say to those on his right, 'Come, you who are blessed by my Father; take your inheritance, the kingdom prepared for you since the creation of the world. For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me.' "Then the righteous will answer him, 'Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you something to drink? When did we see you a stranger and invite you in, or needing clothes and clothe you? When did we see you sick or in prison and go to visit you?' "The King will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me.'

Friday, November 13, 2009

God Gave Me a wake up call

Generation last night was AMAZING!!! I will be changed forever after last night’s message. I went in not expecting to be moved like I was (I know that sounds crazy because you should always go expecting God to move).

A man and his family in our ministry spoke last night about how God had moved in their lives the past 5 months. He was in a motorcycle wreck in June and at first glance he should not have been where he is today. His wife spoke about how God ordered every step during that time --- from the nurses to the hospital to the surgeons to the rehab facility to the people who visited them in the hospital. This man had broken multiple vertebrate and should not have been able to walk again-----but he is walking TODAY!!!! God supernaturally healed him from the inside out. He talked about how while he was “out of it” he saw things that he never wanted to talk about or see again --- how he saw the spiritual battle for his very life. He talked about how he wondered where God was in all of this and how when he called and called out to God he found Him. One thing that stuck out to me was when he said God doesn’t move—WE DO!

He went on to talk about the spirit of fear that was attacking him and his family at this time and how he knew all the scriptures that spoke about how God does not want us to fear (like,2 Timothy 1:7 For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline. and Philippians 4:6 Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done.)but he just was under serious attack. His wife talked about phone calls she received during this from friends that said they had a serious burden to pray for them and to pray against the spirit of fear that was attacking their family---she was amazed. He then went on to talk about how there was NO DOUBT that God performed this miracle not the medical community. God showed out and turned the medical community upside down.

I sat and listened to this amazing story last night of how God rocked this family’s world and all of my issues right now seemed insignificant in comparision to the fact that life is SHORT. I have been under attack here lately and felt like God just didn’t care---but last night I woke up!!! Mark was closing the service last night when he said he had a burden on his heart that someone in the room was having issues with fear and feeling like God wasn’t there---that He didn’t hear you—that He didn’t care. Well that person was ME, I started shaking all over and crying and turning into a mess---that’s when Mark shared what the Lord laid on his heart to tell “that person” aka ME----He said that God wanted me to go after Him with my WHOLE heart and to let Him take care of everything else because He cared enough to go through life with me. Then the band started playing Oh How He Loves Us-----and I broke!!!!

All of the crap that had been going on in my life with relationships, jobs, family, fears of every kind, past regrets, etc…..didn’t matter anymore because I knew my Daddy heard me crying and He wanted me to climb up in His arms and just let Him hold me----He cared---He loved me---He chose me----He wanted ME!!!

I say all of that to tell you----Life is life, it's short and it stinks at times- things will happen, people will come and go, storms will come, but none of that matters. Being in LOVE with your Savior is the ONLY thing that matters!!!!

I’ve included 2 videos of some songs that are now my life songs!!

Monday, November 9, 2009

Give Honor Where It's Due

Veterans' Day is this week and that means it is time to honor those men and women who lay their lives on the line for our freedom. Veterans' Day has had a new meaning to me for the last few years. I have always respected our military men and women but a few years ago it hit a little closer to home. My cousin Phillip had enlisted in the Army when he was younger and he hit the ground running and took the job as a soldier seriously. He went to Ranger school and Paratrooper school and rose in the rankings in the Army. I was so very proud of him. After 9-11 I started getting this feeling that something was going to happen and I may never see Phillip again. He had been stationed in Germany and we had lost touch but he still meant a lot to me.

I remember being at my grandmother's house one night and she told me she had something to tell me----Phillip was going to war. It was like someone had hit me right in the stomach. I sat there for what felt like forever not knowing what to say. She told me that my aunt was going to have a get together before he left to go back to Fort Benning and I could not wait to see him and tell him how much I loved him. I did not want to let him go that day. I was scared to death something was going to happen to him.

Every day as the updates on the Iraq war came I was sick---- I felt worse and worse as the statistics came in. I was a nervous wreck not knowing how Phillip was doing or if he was still alive. Then came the article in the paper with Phillip's picture in it---I had a HUGE sigh of relief that day--He was ok! Then the pain came again and lasted for a while until he came HOME!!!!

Oh the day he FINALLY came home......My aunt threw a coming home party (she always has parties) And I don't think I left Phillip's side for 1 minute that day!! I was SOOOOOOO glad he was home in 1 piece.

But the battle doesn't end when the troops come home. They have to deal with what they saw and what they did and sometimes it is VERY hard for them to reacclamate to the day to day.

I don't think that at times we give our troops the respect that they deserve. They fight for US!!!! I know people my age only aquaint war to what is going on now but there are more troops out there that have fought in wars that we could not even wrap our heads around how bad they were.

Thank our troops and let them know how much you appreciate what they do!!!!!

Seasons come and Seasons GO!!!!

So I just need to get something off my chest……..

Here lately I have been painfully aware of the fact that I am single. It’s going on 4 years that I have been single (technically more if you count the fact that my last “relationship” was only one of convenience HAHA). But within the last few months I have just felt hopeless in this situation. Not saying that I would go back to my last relationship and try to make it work because I wouldn’t (I was miserable) but I do miss having someone to share my life with. I am so glad that I have friends that are there for me and know exactly what to say --- I thank God that He has put them in my life. I even talked to my cousin and he informed me of what kind of person that I was when I was in my last relationship and if I went into another relationship like that I would end up going down a road I hated-----HE WAS SO RIGHT!!!!! I look back and realize God definitely knew what He was doing getting me out of that relationship because I was quickly turning into a person I despised while I was in it. To sum the relationship up in 1 word—COMPROMISE! I know that each time I try to take things into my hands I just make a big mess of things but then it is SO hard for me to see this time in my life as roses and gumdrops-----it sucks a lot at times. I try to tell myself that this is worth it and that God has someone so much better than anyone I have ever been in a relationship with but at times I get in this place where I wonder if the man is ever going to show up?!?!?

Anyway, I am thankful for my friends during this time especially because they really give me tough love and tell me how stupid I am being HAHA. I am glad that most of them get what I am going through and how sometimes you just want to scream when you get the “friend card” thrown in your face ALL THE TIME!!!!!! But whatever!

I was at Link last night and a friend of mine’s husband was giving his testimony and something he said really stuck out to me (well a lot did) but he was talking about how he felt after a relationship had ended and how He experienced God come and meet him and tell him that He was preparing his bride. Then he talked about how God wanted him to chase Him and let Him do the rest----At this point my friend Natalie almost knocked me off my chair haha----But then he talked about when him and his wife met and how everything was worth the wait. I was like Ok God I get it!!!! But then I told my mom I wanted to move because I was tired of Alabama boys screwing me over HAHAHA

So then I was talking to one of my really good guy friends last night and we weren’t even talking about relationships but then HE ASKED ME about some stuff and we just started talking about it. We were talking about how we know that we are not meant to be single and how we just wish that this “season” would hurry up and go away when a verse that another friend of mine gave me kept replaying in my head over and over. Hosea 2:14 "Therefore I am now going to allure her; I will lead her into the desert and speak tenderly to her.” I know that God has me in this place for a reason and I am just going to let Him show me why ----- even though I really want out of this season quickly! HAHA